Familiana, 2018 Q4

The year ended with something of an unremarkable denouement, but that was probably a good thing. I feel like it’s commonplace to people feel, as they get older, like the last chunk of the year feels less and and less holidayish. That was particularly true for me this year. Not that it was a bummer, nothing so dire. Q4 was so stressful and i have been so anxious that I think i needed the tail end of December to trail off into the night with more of a glide than a bang.

What a truly stressful quarter. I got sick, and we had so much that suddenly needed to be done that i ended up sleeping over at the office quite a few times as well. I think it’s a natural byproduct of effectively having 3 streams of income that require my active participation – I’m a photographer, i help run a graphic design studio, i teach. This year there’s another venture on the horizon too. There’s just not enough Sandee to put out all the damn fires.

All told though, I really REALLY can’t complain. Hey, i’m busy because business is booming. Life is happening. All things considered, i’m in control of my time. I get to spend most of my day with Sean and i get to go home and eat dinner with my family whenever i want. I have very easy access to friends that like to kill time and decompress in the same way that I do (read: boardgames, MTG, D&D). I get to see my swath of adorable niblings regularly, AND i don’t need to change their diapers. It’s a good time. I’m just tired.

I only took one trip this quarter, and it was to La Union for the annual Dans reunion. It was pretty low key for a Dans invasion, considering there were only 80 of us and we closed out the entire resort, but yknow. Quiet holiday season is what we said, right?.

In conclusion, there are many babies.

On a final note, I’ve also begun shooting couples for Off Kilter Studio this quarter and it’s been AMAZING. What a difference it makes to adjust your perspective on what collaborating with a couple is supposed to look like. I’m actually excited to go on shoots now – like kilig and everything. It used to be something that caused me a great deal of anxiety. These shoots have just been pure joy.

I’m still psyching myself up to do that blog post about why I left weddings and why i came back, but i may still need some time to muster up the cojones to do it. I just don’t want to ruffle any feathers, but imho the industry is ripe for disruption. You know, the patriarchy and all.

Hit me up if this interests you, maybe we can be disruptive together.